Hi ppl, it's again a long time no post...seriously a very long time. Sigh, ever since I became ASL, I have turned into a totally different person altogether. From the carefree and playful player, to a strict and harsh dictator..no lah, not dictator but rather leader since I don't play sides.
Well, I guess my juniors were pretty shocked by the sudden change in me...I sometimes wonder if I am too hard on them or maybe I been too lenient on them by not gathering them together to practice seriously. Hence, so far, there have not been any breaks in between since most of the practice times were only used for most my Sec1s, touring round the school. Yea...i understand that Sec1 students are very adventurous and moreover they are new the the secondary school environment.
But, there's always a time for seriousness and a time for leisure.. I feel that this is something I have not drilled enough into them yet...it's hard when you have high expectations for your orchestra...
But one thing I am happy about this group is their eagerness to do something they want to do. It is their enthusiasm that keeps them persistent in what they do despite many challenges...sadly, their desires are not on CO but other things that interest time...sigh...it will take some time for them to be passionate for CO..but how long?
Sometimes, I feel that there is still something missing in the way i lead..it seems that many Sec1s refuse to cooperate and are always rebellious...okay, looking on the bright side, they will turn out to be smart people in future, after all they are nearing in their teens now...so it is only normal for them to demand for their own rights. I myself admit that I was like that in sec1...if you want...you can ask Ying Xiang or Yi Rui (Ying Xiang's senior)..though ying Xiang will juz say that I break all his bo pian (pick) in just a few months.
However, there are times I had really wanted them to be serious, FOR ONCE!!! yea..for once be serious and cooperate, though sometimes I have never seen them disciplined..So far, I have shouted at them to attract attention but never used shouting for "counselling"sessions...to simply out it...never shown my rage on them, YET! I hope I don't have to do so..flipping tables and yelling till the entire school hears..
Well, after being an ASL, everything has change, the people's impression of me...the impression I give to others...perhaps I should reflect how being an ASL has totally changed me...
